Today is the 1st of may, and I and Benjamin drove to Tornow (a little town or neighbourhood outside Berlin, to the south) with his grandmother.
Well... THAT was an experience! I don't even know how to start... she is 90 years old!
I mean.. this is at least something with impact. To hear someone who plans her death and is sure that it doesn't last too long to come... Besides, she's quite exhausting; always calling for attention, always telling you to do things (we were there today to help her clean her vacations' house). But well... she is very lonely and I would say very strong, to keep up all these years, after many deaths of friends, living alone, keeping herself sane. I always have to think about me and ask myself what I would have in my head when I'm that old. When I cannot count on the future, when I cannot make plans anymore, when I cannot even worry about... making a diet. that will all not make sense anymore. And I'll have to lie my head down on a pillow every night with the conscience that my parents are dead, all the men I had in my life as well, my descendants
are all striving for their own lives, just caring about me so that I don't become crazy or so I don't get a too hard sickness. I don't know.. all those thoughts. they're very very disturbing!
But somehow I was happy to see her today. To see that she has to face all this and she is neither depressed nor crazy (or sick)! That was quite inspiring. actually, very inspiring.
So. after trying to clean up a bit her little house, we went to a restaurant (where she goes since 30 years) and ate a Germany's spring classic: asparagus with boiled potatoes, sauce hollandaise and scrambled eggs. Ach! For someone who had eaten just a diet Protein Shake in the morning, that was too much. I had to feel so sick in the car on the way back. Aber es hat SEHR gut geschmeckt!
Yea. So that was more or less my 1st of may: trying to make a diet, reflecting about age, life and death; grabbing leaves and branches from the soil and getting stuffed by potatoes, eggs and fat sauce!
:)
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