sammertime

yes.
It's not summer yet, but it looks and feels like, sometimes.

This picture was taken on the last saturday, in a park of which I have no clue what's the name, with Benni and Ülkü (so eine verrückte nette tusse).
We wanted to go to Tornow in the weekend, but ended up meeting with her in a suspicious bar, ate lunch (which took at least 2 hours to arrive), talked a lot, had some fun (although i'm able to bore any living creature from this earth =P), enjoyed the sun.

And about the day before yesterday: I met with Martin at one o'clock in our favourite restaurant (oder? =P), shared a business lunch - which could also be called monstrous lunch. it's absurdly big! It's composed by a bowl of soup - accompanied by some indian bread, then it comes the main meal, accompanied by another bowl of rice and another one of salad. hehehehe... good for us!
Still there we tried (my german is not yet the best! =S) to talk about a few things, like how my trip to Brazil was, how I came to maturity in these 5 weeks hehehe, what he's been doing and so.
Then, we rode to the beautiful Teufelsberg, wandered around its area, around the Teufelssee and came back, where we ate a rather dry pizza each and I came back home tired and happy (and with a slight headache from the intensive german training =P).

sandade:

de fazer xixi sentado;
incomodar com som do fone de ouvido;
dizer "desculpe", "por favor" e "obrigado" necessariamente numa mesma frase;
ter razao em achar o fim por alguem falar enquanto voce dorme;
sentar numa mesa de bar com o discman numa cadeira, sua bolsa noutra, voce noutra e o celular em cima da mesa;
de andar com a calca apertadinha, ser paqueradinho e NAO ouvir piadinha;
passar o dia na rua e nao ficar oleosa nem com o cabelo PHÁÁÄÄÁÁR;
falar palavrao alto no meio da rua e ainda ser gringa (ao inves de desclassificada);
nao ser E.T. por: ouvir björk, ser gay ou vegetariano;
ver os galegoes serenos e pensar que a vida pode ser maravilhosa;
comprar vichy por dez conto;
ir a McDonald's veg;
voltar do McDonald's veg as duas da manha pra casa sem ser: morta, violentada, chantagiada, roubada, abduzida, jogada do sexto andar...;
ser o maioral por tocar maracatu, ficar falando sempre em qualquer lingua que nao portugues, perder raizes, burrice irreversivel;
E DE FICAR ESCREVENDO MERDA NA ESPERANCA DE FAZER ALGUM LESO RIR.

Berlin

gentem!!
tou postando hoje somente meeesmo pra dizer que ta' tudo beeem, que benjamin ta' sendo fofissimo comigo, melhor impossivel, que eu tou procurando por emprego, o clima aqui ta otimo! ta' tudo florido e colorido! ate' me disseram que eu trouxe o sol na mala, pois desde que eu cheguei, teem sido bem ensolarado, os dias.

e tambem tou sem tempo de escrever muito!
depois eu posto um negocinho q eu escrevi no aeroporto, vindo pra ca'!
beijos pra todos voces!

(h)in.san.o brasileiro

feijão, amigas todo fim-de-semana, cuscuzeira, pele oleosa, bolo-de-rolo, feijoada, barulho - muito barulho, internet sem privacidade, arroz com farofa, queijo coalho, água gostosa em temperatura ambiente, biscoito Passatempo, shopping center só pra passear, fofoca, vidas vazias, telefonema da mãe todo dia, empregada escrava, isabella nardoni, três segundos, "agente" junto, festa, churrasco, missa, churrasco, batizado, churrasco, velório, churrasco, barulho - sim - MUITO barulho, 76 mil casos de dengue, bunda, pagode, futebol, churrasco, maquiagem borrada, tradição, jagunço, olha-que-coisa-mais-linda, 2 horas no ônibus, suor, carne de soja, inhame, macaxeira, muriçoca.

Isso é um pouco do que eu conheço do Brasil.
e vou deixá-lo mais uma vez.

sane.

"oh boy! i cannot find my keeeys - i'm far too late.
the door is open now, the taxi is waiting there.
pa a pa pa pa pa"

excited. exciting.
in a week, i'll be very nervous, saying bye to the little details from Brazil in a nostalgic farewell.
gut so, würde ich sagen ;)
I already miss Berlin and I can't wait to start with a new job, study german again and prepare myself for the Studienkolleg's Aufnahmeprüfung, meet nice new vegetarian people [see my husband again - whatever relation we have =P], make friends.

me and my hopes. - much better than despair, though. -

Today I'm finally going to the beach with my mother, where i'll spend something like 5 days. I hope that will be a rather hippie, non-civilized, lonesome reflective experience. I'm in this introspective mood lately. Good for settling things down.

And I would like to thank veeeery much my dear beloved friends! Quebrada, tchobrigado por tudíssimo! Foi o máximo vocês terem ido quase todas me pegar no aeroporto, terem marcado encontros comigo mesmo aos trancos e barrancos. Nunca vou esquecer vocês, e vamo tentar se empolgar com aquela minha idéia de fazer uma excursão na europa poxa! Mesmo que daqui a 2, 3 anos!!! É só juntar dinheiro e se programar!!!! Beijinhos.

i am the san and the heir of a shyness that is criminally vulgar.

How come I can be even lazier than I used to be???
Maybe that's 'cause I know i'll be soon gone, so I want to have less memories...
Maybe...
"I just wanna be, wanna be gone!"

Today I had a very very tiring day. Got a clue what I've done? I've ridden/driven (help me!) 3 buses around the city. THAT was it! But all my energies are go-ne!

let the sanshine in.

Gente!
Tô recriando um blog. Espero que consiga levá-lo à frente e, principalmente, que sirva de algo.
Digo logo que não vai ser só em português - já que eu conheço muito mais gente que fala inglês e vai ler isso aqui do que lusófonos.

Since I arrived in Brazil (something like 3 or 4 weeks ago), I've listened to a song that was somewhere in my playlist, to which I never gave that much attention before, that somehow makes a lot of sense to me in the present moment "leave the body, leave the mind, every promise, every place behind. i just happen to be so alone. for today, for all days to come. i just wanna be, wanna be gone!"
hahaha.
Maybe it sounds a bit too dramatic but no, I don't feel desperate, trapped, hopeless or anything like that (at least not in this very second). It's just a quite strange situation that no matter where you are, you feel some homesickness, das heimweh, die sehnsucht, saudade... The craving for something new, surprising, inspiring, hopeful... [maybe i'm just to lazy to build that up myself]
The impression that there are not enough people with whom you'd feel corresponded to make exciting projects, to make a difference, to grow up with, to evolve, to congregate...

=S
But I'll keep faith and wait for the great. :) [that's at least what I need to tell myself]


I'll keep you posted.